Thanks for sharing of youself so honestly. It's so human. You seem like an intense person. I have friends like that and, at times, I have to take a break from them. It's not because I want them to change. I love them because of their intensity. I'm just different from them and at times I need to rest.

It's ok to change, especially if it's personal growth. Do it for yourself and stay true to yourself. If you naturally live life at a certain intensity, don't turn it down to just suit others. However, if your friends at times get worn out from your intensity, learn to accept that. After all, you want them to accept you for who you are too. You will only push people away if you make demands of them that they are incapable or unwilling to meet. Otherwise, your friends will be there for you when you need them the most. That has been my experience.